My Ongoing Battle
11/06/2009 |
Question:
I really hope you can help me. The thing is Iâve been suffering from depression and an eating disorder since I was 14. Iâm 20 now. Iâve been primarily anorexic but recently Iâve begun to develop bulimia. My problem is I am really ashamed of this. I feel like I have no self-control and I feel horrible and fat. I see a therapist and she helped me so much. I was hospitalized a lot of times and she helped me through them. I have been maintaining a semi healthy weight that is on the low spectrum for my height. Iâm 5`3 and I weigh in at 102-104 pounds, for a few months. However just recently I have begun to binge and purge. It plagues me day and night and I try to concentrate on my school which I just started but itâs hard and I really am not doing well. I am not working but I still use the little money I do have to buy binge food and Iâm really losing money fast. Iâm too ashamed to tell my therapist who I have really been honest too. Each time I binge I tell myself itâs the last time but I canât seem to stop. Can you help me?
Answer:
An eating disorder is like an abusive lover…. the eating disorder behaviors are beginning to take over your life, and when an abusive lover moves in, it is easy to want to defend it and be ashamed of it.
The main way to decrease its power is to tell another about it and begin to get the support to help yourself push the abusive lover out of your space… I strongly encourage you to tell your therapist, in spite of the shame, and work directly with the therapist who has been there for you.
For more information:
Go to the Eating Disorders health topic.